You Saved Me

You broke my heart
Tore it apart
You ripped it from my chest
My life is now a mess
It’s because of you
I love you too
That’s what you said
That night in your bed
Room when we were sitting there
I was playing with your hair
All I ever did was take a chance
I would’ve married you with just one glance
You said you wanted to be together
On and on forever and ever
I can’t help but to wait
I won’t ever find another mate
Not like you babe

You helped save me from myself
You kept me calm and nothing else
You made sure I didn’t run away
Even though I didn’t want to stay
You were the only one who said you cared
You said, “Fuck everyone else, as long as I’m there.”
I told you I was walking
And then you started talking
Telling me that you were worried
I felt scared but unhurried
You said you would wait until you knew I was okay
You said you loved me and wanted me to stay
You said you were scared for my life
On that cold Dark night
You apparently wanted to save me, you did your best
Even though you ripped my heart clear out of my chest
How can you do this?

You said you would never leave me, you said you would never go
You said you die without me but I guess that was a show
I told you I would always be there, but it was my mistake
I thought you would come back, but now my heart aches
I miss you so badly
I walk sad and madly
I wish I wouldn’t have been so stupid
I was dumb, and followed cupid
He told me we would stay forever
And have nothing to worry about, not now or ever
So I listened to him and gave it a chance
I was under your spell and in a trance
Every word you said
Every tear I shed
All seemed to make perfect sense
Until I realized you didn’t climb the fence
And that isn’t right

I put up this fence to see who would climb
But you just knocked and didn’t even try
I opened up and let you in
You got into my head and under my skin
While you were there you healed my soul
I thought that I had everything in control
But I didn’t and that was my flaw
Now I must wait for my heart to thaw
Its frozen and cracking
I’m taking my bag and I am packing
I don’t care if you say no
I don’t care if you tell me to go
I’m doing this for me and not for you
I’m trying to get away, but not from you
Because you will always have my heart
You have had it since the start
You will always have it

I really wish I could make this okay
If it was you know I would stay
Because I love you with the entire nothing I have to give
I don’t even know what life to live
Is here in a broken world
Or is it there in a world unfurled
You have helped me to make a choice
And let the world hear my voice
You give me courage, you give me strength
You showed me I could go the length
I’m going to miss you dearly
My eyes are teary’
As I am saying my goodbyes
I shall try not to cry
Always remember one little thing
When you look back at that broken ring
You saved me

Fatherly Love

There is red thick blood shed
A cold dead heart on the floor
A hunched over girl in a old wooden rocking chair
Lips as cold and blue as ice
And there in the vertical corner sits a man
A man with chestnut brown hair and rose red lips
A man with a cold steel knife in his sweaty hands
There are bright blue and reds lights upon the street
As the crude police men come up to the already broken down door
They walk upon the creaky wooden floor to see what there is to be seen
The corner man has only this to say…”That is my daughter.”

Midnight Madness

In the silence of my mind all I can think about is the time
The time when you and I were never apart
A time when you and only you had my heart
All this thinking is making me weary; my eyes are red and also teary
You said I was beautiful, you said I was smart
If I only I knew you lied right from the start

While I wonder I shall ponder
About every lie you told me
About every lie I couldn’t see
You make me frustrated and mad, you make me sick but also sad
You wrote our names upon that tree
You said I was yours and I couldn’t be free

I tried to escape from that unwanted hell. He heard me scream, he heard me yell
He came to save me from you
He tried to take me and make me new
But you caught and tortured him, tearing him limb by limb
Now I am chained, looking at this treacherous view
The one I dreamt of was murdered by you

Why can’t you leave me alone, why can’t I just go home?
Why do you have to continue to lie?
Why can’t you just be a decent guy
You make me scream, it must be a dream
How could you ever make me cry?
You said you wouldn’t but I guess you lied

I am locked in this chamber, I am in danger
I am loosing my mind
I fear I might die
He is getting closer, he sounds like a dozer
He is standing over me, looking me in the eye
Asking me if I would like to die

I tell him no, I want to go
He has a knife
I am scared for my life
He holds it to my throat, I begin to stutter and choke
He says he is the reaper and this is his scythe
He said he is sorry but my life isn’t right

The Father Figure & The Boy

One man can take away everything in a girl’s life.
One man has the power to pick her up or shove her down.
One man can control every aspect and not have to hear the sobs.

But another man can give a girl everything
Another man can make her the happiest girl in a split second
Another man can make the tears go away with just a smile.

But when these men meet, who will be right?
The man who would give the world for her,
Or the man who would take it away just because he can?
The man who will do anything for her in the blink of an eye,
Or the man who fights her constantly and acts like he doesn’t care?
The man who would give his life just to make her feel better,
Or the man who would give her life just to make her go away?

Back In The Day

You were always there for me,
Back in the day
You had my back no matter what,
Back in the day
I really thought we had something,
Back in the day
But you only wanted her,
Back in the day
Now you see what you have missed out on,
Back in the day
You see how you hurt me,
Back in the day
You want me now like I did you,
Back in the day
Only problem is, is that it isnt
Back in the day

Prose

You saw me but you were always to afriad to talk. You thought that I would run away into the night without one word. So you got the idea to look for me on myspace and start a conversation to see how I would react. To your surprise I replied, not knowing who you are. We talked for hours and decideed to meet. You thought I would blow you off but I showed up and you were rattling because of your nerves. You lit up one after the other until finally you stopped shaking. More people began surrounding us in the middle of main. The night got darker and the wind grew colder. I told you that I was cold and you wrapped your arm around me and held me tight. I looked into your eyes and you looked into mine and thats when you asked me the unfortetable question. Now you are mine and I am yours forever babe.

I think I found you.

I think I found you
Or you found me
I was looking for something new
And I found thee

You took my hand
And twirled me around
We escaped the land
Without a sound

You left me pondering
One simple kiss
You left me wondering
What is this?

You showed me love at your expense
Now you’re here forever, and it all makes sense.

Untitled.

You asked me out
And we were so happy
But apparently
Not happy enough

You tore my heart out
And ripped it into a million pieces
But only after you stepped on it
With your football cleats

You killed my soul
And squeezed every last bit
Of love out of me
Before you said your goodbyes

You said you never wanted
To talk to me again
But only after you
Yelled at me for my assumptions

You kissed me
And hugged me again
After you told me
You still loved me

You said you don’t
Want a girlfriend right now
But only after you had time to
Play and f*** with my heart

You took back your hoodie
And my heart along with it
But somehow I still love you
With the entire nothing I have left

Why?

Why do you do this
And why do I fall for it?
We were so happy
And then you dropped me like a bag of bricks
You act like you used to one day
And the next day act like I dont even exsist
How can be this cruel
And play with my heart?
Better question...
How can you do this
But yet I still love more than anything?
Why do I set myself up for getting hurt
When I know I cant have you again?
Why?

5 Haikus

Holes in my body
Put there by sharp tip needles
Blood dripping off them

Music is my life.
Its what keeps me in control
Music keeps me sane.

People like to stare
They think I am too different
They need not to judge

You are my only
You are my dark fallen knight
You can keep me safe

One day I will leave
One day you will be bothered
Without my presence

Sestina

The tears that have fallen
From my eyes only fall at Night
When I can breathe
And walk down the Block
Just to find somewhere to stay
For the time being until tomorrow I must leave

I have to leave
These people before I Fall
For their acts to make me Stay
Even if it is only for the Night
I have to Block
Every word they say so I can breathe

I have to catch my Breath
They just need to leave
So I don’t have to Block
Myself into this Fallen
City during the Night
They cannot force me to stay

Why should I have to stay?
They smother me with every breath
They take. Every night
That I lie awake they just need to leave
Me alone before they realize that im not fallen
For their acts anymore and I ran away down my block

I refuse to be blocked
By them so that I will stay
I know I am fallen
But that is no reason to cut off my air supply so that I can’t breathe
I have to leave
Soon so I can find my shining knight

He will let me Stay
So he can Block
All the evil things away from me until I feel that it is safe to Leave
Or maybe he will let me stay
Forever or at least until I feel I can Breathe
Hopefully by the time im ready the world around me will not have already Fallen

I have found my fallen dark knight
He helps me to breathe and blocks
Out the rest of the world so we can Stay until one day we are ready to leave

I Think...

Torn apart
Have to decide
Whether to stay
Or whether to go
I think...

Dad-
Controlling, judgmental, annoying
Mom-
Pressureing, fearful, oblivious
I think...

Torn apart
Have to decide
Whether to stay
Or whether to go
I think...

The pressure is endless
The time is limited
The descisions are mine
The consequeces are everyones
I think...

Torn apart
Have to decide
Whether to stay
Or whether to go
I think...

Family

Family.
Six letters
Several different meanings
To some it is:
Unity
Love
Trust and
Caring
But to others
It is:
Hatred
Regret
Sorrow and
Broken
How is it that such a wonderful thing
Turn into such a distructable thing
In only a matter of months?
I dont understand it anymore
Family
Six letters
Several different meanings

Connected at the Hand. Always Together. Never Apart.

Connected at the hand
Always together
Never apart
If someone had to find me they went to you
And if someone had to find you they came to me
Those were the good days
The days where absolutely nothing mattered to me
Except you
You were the one thing in this world that I could count on
If I was upset I could count on you to help
No matter what time it was in the day or night
We were so compatible
We got along better than most
Sure, we had our arguments but nothing could keep me from loving you like I did
You were my everything and my nothing all packed into one
You were the one that kept me from making bad choices
And if I made them anyways you never got mad
We lasted so long but yet not long enough
You will forever be my first
My first love
My heart wrenching, mushy, true first love
And no one will ever be able to take that from you
Many have tried but I push them away
Because I dont want them, I want you and only you
I know it was me who made the mistake
I know it was me who said goodbye
And I know it was me who said that our love had ended
But it was you who believed me even when I had tears in my eyes
Saying that I still loved you
I guess I will never get over you
Because every time I see you I want to cry
Every time I hear your voice I cant help but listen
And every time I see you with her I cant help but stare
Just wishing that I wouldnt have done what I did
Because if I hadnt I wouldnt have to miss you this badly
It hurts so much
But I can never have you, ever again
Connected at the hand
Always together
Never apart

Handlebars- Flobots

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars
I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars
Look at me look at me hands in the air like it's good to be ALIVE and I'm a famous rapper even when the paths're all crookedy I can show you how to do-si-do I can show you how to scratch a record I can take apart the remote control And I can almost put it back together I can tie a knot in a cherry stem I can tell you about Leif Ericson I know all the words to "De Colores" And "I'm Proud to be an American" Me and my friend saw a platypus Me and my friend made a comic book And guess how long it took I can do anything that I want cause look
I can keep rhythm with no metronome
No metronome
No metronome
And I can see your face on the telephone
On the telephone
On the telephone
Look at me Look at me Just called to say that it's good to be ALIVE In such a small world I'm All curled up with a book to read I can make money open up a thrift store I can make a living off a magazine I can design an engine sixty four Miles to a gallon of gasoline I can make new antibiotics I can make computers survive aquatic conditions I know how to run a business And I can make you wanna buy a product Movers shakers and producers Me and my friends understand the future I see the strings that control the systems I can do anything with no assistance Cuz
I can lead a nation with a microphone
With a microphone
With a microphone
And I can split the atoms of a molecule
Of a molecule
Of a molecule
Look at me Look at me Driving and I won't stop And it feels so good to be Alive and on top My reach is global My tower secure My cause is noble My power is pure I can hand out a million vaccinations Or let'em all die from exasperation Have'em all healed from there lacerations Have'em all killed by assassination I can make anybody go to prison Just because I don't like'em and I can do anything with no permission I have it all under my command Because
I can guide a missile by satellite
By satellite
By satellite
And I can hit a target through a telescope
Through a telescope
Through a telescope
And I can end the planet in a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars
I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

Temptation

I see you
And I am immediately tempted
Tempted to kiss you
Tempted to hold you
Tempted to love you

You see me
And immediately you are tempted
Tempted to kiss me
Tempted to hold me
Tempted to love me

All the temptations in this world
Can only lead to up to regret and sorrow
So instead of letting it get the best of you
Don’t give in and don’t be tempted to follow

Merry-Go-Round

Circling, spinning
Not seeing things for what they really are
This is a merry-go-round
The word merry is supposed to bring happy thoughts
Instead, all that clogs my head
Is vomiting, getting thrown off,
And the insane dizziness meant as the after effect
This contraption should not be known as a
Merry-go-round, but a torture wheel on an axel
Circling, spinning
Not seeing things for what they really are

G.H.O.S.T.S.

Greedy, malicious, evil
Haunting the weak and torturing the small
Old, young, any age
Staring steadily at you as you enter their presence
Tantalizing you with every breath you take and inch you move
Screaming at you to leave

And Then I Walked Away

I saw you today
You saw me too
And then you walked away

I made you a heart out of clay
You broke it, not having a clue
But you just took it away

I meant it today
When I said I love you
And then you walked away

All I wanted was for you to stay
After devoting my life to you
But you just took it away

You aren’t worth it anyway
You just tore me in two
And then you walked away

Then you told me to stay
And I rejected you
There is nothing more to say
And then I walked away.

Blank Sheet of Paper

Blank sheet of paper
In my eyes you are nothing but evil
You consume and mock me
As I sit in my desk trying to think you stare at me as if you know you shall win
As I think I look at you trying to envision something upon your lines
But every time it turns into you laughing back at me in disbelief that I cannot create some beautiful artwork on you as the person beside me has done
Oh, I hate you blank sheet of paper as you sit there and stare as I think about what would look best on you I cant see to find anything that would add up to your beauty
Maybe I should just dispose of you and use your brother for my art
Maybe he will encourage me to create beautiful things upon his gorgeous lines
Maybe he will even tell me how good I am
That is the kind of paper I wish you to be, but no
You sit on that desk and torture me
Although I know it would be best for me
I cannot bring myself to leave you
For you are my friend, enemy, heart, and soul
You make me enraged but somehow enthused for when I have an idea you are there for me even when I am alone...
Dear dear piece of paper you are wearing thin and I don’t know how much I can keep you before you crumble
I am sorry dear old friend but your time has ended…

The Ladder

There is a ladder
A ladder that only I know how to climb
There is a ladder
A ladder that will help me find peace of mind
There is a ladder
A ladder that leads to the most wondrous place
There is a ladder
A ladder that I choose to fight for and chase
There is a ladder
A ladder that will help you up when you fall
There is a ladder
A ladder that will never ever forget to call
There is a ladder
A ladder that doesn’t play games
There is a ladder
A ladder with a face and a name

Today Is

Today is jumping into a lake with all your clothes on.
Today is looking at your old yearbook with friends.
Today is listening to your favorite song over and over again.
Today is taking a nap that lasts forever.
Today is getting your first tattoo.
Today is a sunset after a stormy day.
Today is pushing one of your friends into a pile of snow.
Today is EATING PANCAKES!!!!
Today is getting new piercing.
Today is full of endless possibilities!