Midnight Madness

In the silence of my mind all I can think about is the time
The time when you and I were never apart
A time when you and only you had my heart
All this thinking is making me weary; my eyes are red and also teary
You said I was beautiful, you said I was smart
If I only I knew you lied right from the start

While I wonder I shall ponder
About every lie you told me
About every lie I couldn’t see
You make me frustrated and mad, you make me sick but also sad
You wrote our names upon that tree
You said I was yours and I couldn’t be free

I tried to escape from that unwanted hell. He heard me scream, he heard me yell
He came to save me from you
He tried to take me and make me new
But you caught and tortured him, tearing him limb by limb
Now I am chained, looking at this treacherous view
The one I dreamt of was murdered by you

Why can’t you leave me alone, why can’t I just go home?
Why do you have to continue to lie?
Why can’t you just be a decent guy
You make me scream, it must be a dream
How could you ever make me cry?
You said you wouldn’t but I guess you lied

I am locked in this chamber, I am in danger
I am loosing my mind
I fear I might die
He is getting closer, he sounds like a dozer
He is standing over me, looking me in the eye
Asking me if I would like to die

I tell him no, I want to go
He has a knife
I am scared for my life
He holds it to my throat, I begin to stutter and choke
He says he is the reaper and this is his scythe
He said he is sorry but my life isn’t right

The Father Figure & The Boy

One man can take away everything in a girl’s life.
One man has the power to pick her up or shove her down.
One man can control every aspect and not have to hear the sobs.

But another man can give a girl everything
Another man can make her the happiest girl in a split second
Another man can make the tears go away with just a smile.

But when these men meet, who will be right?
The man who would give the world for her,
Or the man who would take it away just because he can?
The man who will do anything for her in the blink of an eye,
Or the man who fights her constantly and acts like he doesn’t care?
The man who would give his life just to make her feel better,
Or the man who would give her life just to make her go away?

Back In The Day

You were always there for me,
Back in the day
You had my back no matter what,
Back in the day
I really thought we had something,
Back in the day
But you only wanted her,
Back in the day
Now you see what you have missed out on,
Back in the day
You see how you hurt me,
Back in the day
You want me now like I did you,
Back in the day
Only problem is, is that it isnt
Back in the day

Prose

You saw me but you were always to afriad to talk. You thought that I would run away into the night without one word. So you got the idea to look for me on myspace and start a conversation to see how I would react. To your surprise I replied, not knowing who you are. We talked for hours and decideed to meet. You thought I would blow you off but I showed up and you were rattling because of your nerves. You lit up one after the other until finally you stopped shaking. More people began surrounding us in the middle of main. The night got darker and the wind grew colder. I told you that I was cold and you wrapped your arm around me and held me tight. I looked into your eyes and you looked into mine and thats when you asked me the unfortetable question. Now you are mine and I am yours forever babe.

I think I found you.

I think I found you
Or you found me
I was looking for something new
And I found thee

You took my hand
And twirled me around
We escaped the land
Without a sound

You left me pondering
One simple kiss
You left me wondering
What is this?

You showed me love at your expense
Now you’re here forever, and it all makes sense.

Untitled.

You asked me out
And we were so happy
But apparently
Not happy enough

You tore my heart out
And ripped it into a million pieces
But only after you stepped on it
With your football cleats

You killed my soul
And squeezed every last bit
Of love out of me
Before you said your goodbyes

You said you never wanted
To talk to me again
But only after you
Yelled at me for my assumptions

You kissed me
And hugged me again
After you told me
You still loved me

You said you don’t
Want a girlfriend right now
But only after you had time to
Play and f*** with my heart

You took back your hoodie
And my heart along with it
But somehow I still love you
With the entire nothing I have left

Why?

Why do you do this
And why do I fall for it?
We were so happy
And then you dropped me like a bag of bricks
You act like you used to one day
And the next day act like I dont even exsist
How can be this cruel
And play with my heart?
Better question...
How can you do this
But yet I still love more than anything?
Why do I set myself up for getting hurt
When I know I cant have you again?
Why?

5 Haikus

Holes in my body
Put there by sharp tip needles
Blood dripping off them

Music is my life.
Its what keeps me in control
Music keeps me sane.

People like to stare
They think I am too different
They need not to judge

You are my only
You are my dark fallen knight
You can keep me safe

One day I will leave
One day you will be bothered
Without my presence